Frustrated.
Trying hard not to be.
But I am.
I just want to feel fucking understood.
WHERE are the people who want to hear what I have to say?
Where they at!?
OMFG AM I EXCITED!!!
June 12, 2012.
Gabrielle Bernstein is a genius! I love her.
Those deeply enmeshed in a close-knit group may never become aware of the fact that their lives do NOT actually depend on what happens within the group but on forces far beyond their perception.
—Rose Cosner, Sociologist
Grab it here.
Working through my food issues.
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How I feel.
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On the way to Queen Mary for Breakfast.
My life has gone from zero to sixty.
More has happened in the past few weeks than they have in the past 6 years.
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:)
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Oh yes, I did.
I feel like I’m always surrounded by people who dry to dull my shine. Nobody understands my need to be sparkly, be colorful, be fun. Everybody just plays it safe. That’s not who I am. I do not sink back into a sea of beige and grey. THIS is the time in our lives to be adventurous. Plenty of time left to dress like old grandmas, people.
“Girls do not dress for boys. They dress for themselves and, of course, each other. If girls dressed for boys they’d just walk around naked at all times.”- Betsey Johnson
Middle Ground.
I’ve been struggling with conflicting ideas about food for a very long time. My best friend is currently taking a class about the violence of animals which is opening us to some in depth conversations. I don’t know why it affects me so deeply but it does. It’s interesting that we all feel the need to establish who we are by what we do. My struggle is in the fact that I haven’t reached a consensus of how I want to approach food. Part of me feels strongly against eating meat. Purely for ethical reasons. I do not support the way animals are fed, treated and slaughtered for our consumption. It’s awful and it makes me so incredibly upset. I think about it constantly. My personal impact on the environment.
The other part of me understands that animal protein is simply optimal. Plant proteins are (unfortunately) inferior. A baby fed on a vegan diet or breastfed from a vegan mother is absolutely detrimental. The research is there and it doesn’t lie. I LIVE to read about nutrition- all sides of it. We can argue until we’re blue in the face but in the end, people selectively choose what they want to hear and what makes them comfortable. Anyone can get by without eating meat as an adult, that I agree with. No one is going to wither away without it. I just think that a diet heavily based on processed fake meat, corn and soy products is the opposite of healthy. I care about animals and I’m confident that I could give up meat. I love tofu! I love pasta! Rice! Veggies! I could do it.
But I don’t.
I like the taste of meat. I’m not ashamed. I love how healthy it makes me feel. It makes my muscles grow and my hair super shiny. It makes me feel satiated. It’s more than just about meat. It’s part of culture, part of the social norms I grew up with. I’m a total foodie, a freaking-good-food-snob! It’s not easy for me to give it up. I hate the fact that I can’t sway one way or the other. I hate the fact that things aren’t black and white for me. It would be much easier if I could simply declare a label and attach it to myself. But I just don’t work that way.
I will continue to wrestle with these ideas. I applaud and admire those who have figured out what works for them. I’d like to reach that peace one day! For now, I’ve decided to reduce the quantity that I consume. I want to eat just enough at the best quality I can afford, to support my workouts and daily happiness. Not that I was ever a blood thirsty carnivore in the first place but consciously cutting back is something I am happy to do. My stance on things changes constantly but at this moment, I am okay with myself.
She is my ultimate inspiration- Rachel Elizabeth Murray.
I want to be at OKTOBERFEST this year.
